Saturday, April 29, 2006
yesterday was amazing! and super fun. (:
i met shilbe early at tampines mall. and of course we two weren't supposed to know anything. so we innocently fell into their trap. haha. then met olivia, li qin, poh yi, jialing and er isabella there. had lunch. then isabella left. the band people changed. and then poh yi left for lunch with her mommy. but poh yi also knew what's going on and she don't wanna tell me! haha. then we were to the playground in tampines. oh. it was like damn fun there. oli was like climbing here and there. then there was this thing that spins. and me and oli were like on it. and that jialing had to come and spin us. like real hard. so we were spinning and screaming. haha. i nearly fell okay. and i didn't scream as much as oli. haha. so when we got down, the world was
spinning. took pictures. then we went back to the mall to walk around.
oli then wanna bring us to some place where the scenery was nice. cause apparently tampines mall is boring you know. so we waited for cab. actually we were waiting for some nice taxi drivers to let all 5 of us in. haha. so finally found one. and we were off to changi beach club. oli wasn't supposed to tell me and shilbe. but then she had to tell the taxi driver. and on the ride there, oli said that i was talking non-stop. opps. heh. okay. when we were nearly that place, oli said, "this looks familiar. i think i have come here before". her story was that her father goes to that club. then it doesn't make sense right. so she said, "oh. i don't go this club. i go another club". then we reached there, and there was this guy. haha. so it turned out to be meng mei's father. haha. then her mother came up, and i recognised her. and she said, "they all are downstairs". like who the hell are they all? haha. mm's mother didn't know that it was supposed to be a surprise. so her mom said something wrong lar. haha. then we walk walk walk. and i saw a cake. if they start singing at that moment i might have cried. haha. but then they had to keep me and shilbe away from the cake cause they weren't ready. haha.
so finally everything was settled and we were led to the cake. 30 candles. haha. cause it was a surprise for me and shilbe. and that was my third surprise party and my 4th birthday cake. HAHA. they sang and we wished and we blew the candles. i wished for something that i forgot to wish for on my three birthday cakes. haha. like finally. then we cut cake and they presented us present. after that, oli forced us to give thank you speeches. haha. and we were supposed to open our present after that. i got a lingerie set. HAHA. oli video-ed my reaction. but what i did was laugh only. heh. then shilbe got a jacket! okay. then jialing left for her piano. oh yes. it was damn hot there and there were so many mosquitos. so we went to get a drink, while waiting for mm. finally mm came back. and we decided to go and jump into the pool. so we walk walk walk. and stop at the playground. we were all obviously over-aged. and all of our butts can't fit into the slides. heh. then me and liqin were trying to balance on this see-saw-ish thing. and obviously we didn't succeed. took many pictures! and oli kept saying i was trying to seduce her. haha. and i kept saying that oli was flirting with my liqin. HAHA.
then we got to the pool. which we had wanted to go to ever since we reached. then jy called and we went to meet her. so after that, i changed into mm and delia clothes. so that my clothes will be dry and i can wear them back later. heh. then we came back, and they were playing with oli's flute and liqin's trumpet. i can blow the flute but not the bloody trumpet! haha. i wanna blow somemore. so fun. i shall go and buy a flute. heh. so then finally we jump into the baby pool. cause we were scared that we get chased out cause we were not properly attired. but we still got chased out in the end. they were all so tempted to just take off their tops and jump in. haha. after lazing around, we decided to go and change. it was damn funny in the toilet. haha. i shall not say it here. and li qin nearly lost her slippers. haha. after we changed, we decided to go for dinner. and mm's parents paid for our dinner lar. we felt so bad. and we had ice cream! also her parents pay one. gosh. we felt even worse lar. haha.
then her parents send us all to parkway. hmm. we went popular first. got a little fascinated. haha. then it was closing. so we went parkway. walked around. then stopped at mu-ee. liqin, me and jy bought handphone chains. and we were supposed to changed every now and then kay. haha. then i bought this lighter from there. it's so cute. ahhh. i love it. haha. but i nearly got burnt twice cause i was like playing with it. then we continued walking around and decided to go home! cause nearly all the shops were closing. but no. we walk walk walk and we saw new zealand ice cream. 2 bucks for 2 scoops. so we had ice cream again! me and delia shared. and we had lemon and lime sorbet and macademia. haha. nice nice. and finally we left parkway. haha. and liqin took 48 to my house and then changed to 14. cause she is so nice to accompany me home. haha. that's about it.
okay. know what. i suspected something was going on since delia asked me to go walk walk. and suddenly it is like why the hell is so many people meeting up? and jy refused to tell me too! ahh. haha. i was really touched lar. haha. that was for oli to read. heh. so...
THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO WERE INVOLVED IN GIVING THE SURPRISE!
i don't wanna name you all. i don't wanna leave anyone out. haha. but thank god i have these friends. (: or rather i thank god for giving me all the friendships i had over the years. everyone of them never fail to cheer me up whe i'm down. ((: yesterday was definitely a day to remember for the rest of my life. or rather all the surprises i had this year will be something i will always remember. (: so you see, how can i ever bear to leave singapore huh. sigh. i shall not think about that. i have to stay cheerful. cause then people will have a hard time trying to cheer me up.
alright. i shall go and study!
au revoir!
jing ying and the suona! haha. sorry darling.thank god for the past, present and future friendships. (:what's better than the present? MY FRIENDS! haha. oh ruo yu. i changed my mind already. ((:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
11:57 PM
Friday, April 28, 2006
big goals.i thought i gave up on all my goals already. but somehow the inspiration talk somehow inspired me. i don't know why. and somehow i felt like crying when i watched that video. i felt that i'm such a loser. i'm giving up on myself because of little setbacks. SO i shall try to go back to my usual self. and start working hard again. i have really BIG goals you know.
oh yes. i was super strange today. before recess, i was very quiet. i didn't speak a word except during lessons when i have to talk. then after recess, i was thinking of ways to abuse myself. i wanted to feel pain. so it's either i'm quiet or i'm insane. i wonder which is better.
i felt like killing yixiu today. she was asking why am i quiet AGAIN. ahh. and i think i've really freaked kelly out. oh well. it's not good sitting next to me you know. and i think lots of people know that i wanna be an anorexic. sigh.
hmm. i don't feel as depressed as yesterday. not wait. actually i still do. i feel like slapping myself. no wait. i shall just go and bang my head against the wall. no no no. best solution. i'm gonna get drunk and forget about everything tonight.
i'm going out tomorrow! yay. like finally i'm going out. and i shall just have fun tomorrow and forget about everything. oh and it seems to be a mini 2/9 gathering. haha. it's like 9 or 10 people are going. i thought at first was only a few people. heh.
alright. i shall go find out what's gonna happen tomorrow.
au revoir!
claaar: HELLO WOMAN? since when did i talked to you huh. you disappeared into thin air before i came back. and i felt so bad. actually i still felt bad. sigh. but i'm glad you are alright now. (: and i'm afraid i'll make you sad again. so nevermind if i'm depressed kay? at least one person depressed is better than two people being depressed. it's contagious you know. HAH.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:41 AM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
the whole world is crashing down on me.i'm a failure. period.math ca was quite horrible today. cause the questions were stupid. oh and i got back 2 of my amath spring tests. and i practically failed both. how brilliant can i be.
my world is freakingly falling apart. everything isn't going right. even my very reliable studies. oh great. and i'm beginning to wonder if canada is really as great as what i thought it would be. it may even be worse than here. but too bad. i don't have a choice. so no use thinking of it.
was i quiet today? a little i guess. but i was mostly high, cause it was YIXIU's birthday. tomorrow i shall adopt back my old self. the old self when i was in primary school. excluding p6 and a little of p5. AND people please. don't keep asking me why i'm so quiet. i'm tired of that question. i'm very very scared that i might just explode. you would not like it when i explode.
oh yes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEARIE YIXIU! this funny woman. i shall not say what happened during assembly. it was just hilarious.
know what. i'm sick of being depressed. someone get me out of this state.
i have not done my social studies homework. and i don't plan on doing it. but i might change my mind. who knows. i'm weird remember?
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i'm such a lousy friend. i'm serious. everyone seems to be avoiding me. but i wouldn't mind, cause i'm a lousy friend, remember? maybe i should stop irritating everyone. maybe i should be someone non-existant. then the world would be peaceful. that's quite a brilliant suggestion. goodbye my dear friends. i'll miss you all. oh yes. one reminder. please please please don't make me happy or high or make me laugh. cause then i wouldn't be able to carry out my plan.
au revoir.
`a wish that i forgot to make when i blew my candles.`i miss the old days.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:28 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
I GIVE UP. i've lost all my hopes. so goodbye. there's always a time to be sad and depressed. times like this huh. but not before long, i'll be doing my emotional laughter again. fake laughter. cause apparently seeing my dear yixiu will just make me laugh.
today mep was horrible. but it's over. so thank god. i can't be bothered to freak out just like everyone else. i've learnt to accept things the way they are. if i didn't practice enough and get horrible results, then it's my fault and i've got to accept it.
oh yes. mel gave me her pooh bear. if that's for real. but i've got it with me now. haha. yayy. i love mel. ((:
in a few hours time, my dear xiuxiu is going to be 15. ahaha. so weird calling her xiuxiu. i prefer xiu. okay. that's not the point. i shall have a fun time screaming into her ears tomorrow. as part of celebration for her. (: oh miss yixiu pulls funny faces. and her concentrated face is funny too. oh well. i had a good laugh today. and i kept leaning onto her. not her hands okay! so i didn't injure her hands until she cannot play for mep. hahaha. no one said i did. gosh. i'm crapping.
okay. i've got to get back to + - x /. if you understand what that is. HAHA. or this. hmm. gradient = y2 - y1 / x2 - x1. that's pretty obvious huh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE MY DEAR YIXIU. (:au revoir!
there's always a time to say goodbye. and you just don't understand. i guess you'll never will. i wish for many things. but they never come true.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:27 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
my hand is so colourful. (:
today's biology CA was crap. ahh. shall not think about it. i lost so much sleep just because of that CA. then we had amath spring test. as in really spring. normally we would know when is it. so i was unprepared and i'm predicting a bright red zero on my paper. oh well.
had learning style workshop after school. i was doing my physics homework. ahaha. then i gave up. cause i didn't feel like doing it. so shilbe started drawing on my hand. so parts are nice kay. and there's this part which says plasmolysis. i think shilbe studied too much biology. haha. and when did she drew that? cause she wanted to draw a sun but it was out of shape. so it became a plasmolysed plant cell. haha.
i'm freaking out now. there's mep practical tomorrow. can someone kindly listen to my pieces? HAHA. and i've got to play in schubert room. AHH. the piano there is hard. and my fingers will slip.
oh yes. so fun just now. finally i took bus home with syazzy darling. and finally she let me sit beside her. and yes. i like sitting beside her. HAHA. and apparently she was ignoring the whole day today. how sad. oh. syazzy darling PROMISED to visit me in canada. then she will pull li qin darling along too. haha.
alright. shall continue breaking my fingers on the piano.
au revoir!
I LOVE MY SYAZZY DARLING.I WANNA GO WALK WALK WITH MY LIQIN, KELLY AND DELIA DARLINGS.I WANNA GO STUDY WITH MY CLAAAR DARLING.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:36 AM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
my brain has been shutting down for the whole afternoon. oh great. i was freaking tempted to knock my head against the wall. but i realised it's not a very wise thing to do, since i have tests tomorrow and it would be even worse if my brain dies on me now.
i hate ss. i hate ss. i hate ss. ahh. sigh. and i can't do the amath sums at all. which i realised i could do the exact same sum weeks ago. oh hah. maybe i was really sick this afternoon. i wish. sigh.
oh yes. another hilarious thing. i kept sighing throughout the whole of chinese. then jana asked me to keep quiet. then i kept complaining to ruo yu that i'm having a headache. then she said that if i keep sighing and think too much, my headache is never going away. and i think our conversation is interesting. haha. oh and i talked too much today during chinese. i feel so bad. i shall be good tomorrow, if there's chinese. and wong jing ying is supposed to come and talk to me. if she wants the names of the characters in that movie.
sigh. i wonder if that was causing all this. i think i thought too much. so it resulted in a headache and the shutting down of my brain. SIGH. oh. then when i was talking to yixiu after school, she said that i sounded disappointed although i had a smile on my face. hmm. interesting. i think that was true anyway.
oh well. lynnette! it's always one chance! haha. stop arguing with me.
and before i forget. THANKS RUO YU AND JANA for your present. haha.
i shall fly to northern ireland now. SEE YOU! haha.
au revoir!
i wish i could turn back time.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:58 AM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
WEDNESDAY THE 19TH ROCKS! except some other times.
okay. thanks for all the messages! then thanks for all the presents of course. although it wasn't a lot. cause people all say they will get me belated presents. which i didn't requested. HAHA. okay. hmm. thanks to lynnette, elizabeth and er brenda for the earrings. pretty pretty earrings. i fell in love with it already. although i haven't tried it on. then thanks to charmaine for the earrings and the matching er bracelet? haha. then thanks to rai and lena and jy for the chocolates. haha. oh yes. lena claims that she's going to get me more stuff.
okay. biggest thanks for today goes to my darlings. haha. thanks to li qin, kelly, poh yi, delia and shermaine! haha. thanks for the nice nice cake! haha. okay. i shall blog about what happened. it was damn hilarious. when recess came, kelly went off to look for shermaine. then li qin and accompany me. for don't know what reason. then went down with her cause she needed to meet mrs chia. then i waited for her. and i saw syaz at the foyer. so after that li qin came out of the office and starts pulling me in the canteen direction. syaz joined her too and pulled me too. apparently my dear syaz knows what's was going on and she didn't tell me! haha. and i was already suspicious. cause of what had happened yesterday. so we walk and walk and i saw poh yi, kelly and shermaine. with the birthday cake. suddenly i feel my eyes getting watery. then they started singing birthday song for me. and i started crying. the tears were like flowing down like running tap. and it was tears of joy. haha. and i tried looking at syaz so that i can stop my tears. no use. haha. so i think i cried for a few minutes. and we blew the invisible flames. they forgot to bring lighter. then we had the cake! haha. i still haven't less than a quarter of the cake left. haha. so that's about it! i love my darlings. heh. thanks for everything yeah. i was really touched. but i didn't expected myself to cry. heh.
okay. then during mep i got depressed. because of i don't know what. and claaar was trying to cheer me up. then she scolded me! cause i was very negative. and cause i was depressed, i felt like crying. and claaar's messages make me want to cry. then i actually teared a little. secretly. haha. i don't want people to know that i'm depressed on my birthday. and i think claaar's message made sense. i shall be thankful for all the good things that had happened.
oh yes. i'm so sorry i didn't list down the people who sent me messages. i'm too lazy to get my phone. and the bus trip home was funny. lynnette will know. and i got so freaked out and kind of excited too? haha. oh well. haha. see if lynnette wants to tell you, but she's not allowed to say anything. HAHAHA. i'm not making sense.
such a long post. alright.
au revoir!
a big thank you to everyone who made my day special. even those who sent me messages. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:44 AM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
THANKS CLAAAR AND TARA DARLINGS FOR THE SURPRISE PARTY. i admit that i was a little surprised? and thanks for fulfilling my wish huh. haha. ahhh. i'm so happy. oh yes. i'm so sorry you two had to walk in the rain just to find my house. haha. oh yes. thanks for the er assorted cakes. haha. so in conclusion, THANKS. haha.
oh yes. i want to thank my darling claaar for remembering that i always wanted a surprise party. heh. and it was so fun winning the hamper on 987. haha. oh yes. er thanks to the whole primary school clique too? if they are sharing everything and all. haha.
oh my gosh. i think this year's birthday is the best. oh. and i couldn't stand the birthday song that claaar and tara sang. haha. i can't wait for tomorrow. heh.
oh yes. i shall elaborate on what happened. after all the thanking. my mother is such a bad lier. haha. apparently they had been preparing for this since last thursday. wow. haha. then i came back, my room was sparkling clean and my mom said that her friend was coming. and i had to quickly finish my lunch. all those doesn't make sense you know. haha. then at 3 plus. the door bell rang. so my mom asked me to get the door. i opened the door and i see two drenched kc girls shouting "SURPRISE". haha. i stood for two seconds and burst out into laughter. i kind of expected some people to do that. that after that we had the cake. and the white candle is nice. (: oh yes. apparently i saw the two of them at siglap. haha. i was still wondering if i've seen the wrong people. okay. so yeah. ate a little of the cake and the rest are still in my fridge now. i shall save it for today and tomorrow. haha. then tara left. in case her mother ground her again. heh. and claaar stayed. oh yes. thanks for poning your training to surprise me. heh.
then we crapped a lot. and she was so fascinated by my money. haha. and i still haven't showed her my ipod. then we were supposed to do work. and half way through we started folding paper cranes. then we were listening out for radio contest. then got this magic word thing. and we tried calling in for a thousand and one times. and finally we got through! and of course miss clarissa has a brilliant friend named vicki who gave her luck and a brilliant answer. haha. and yes we won! i bet the whole condo heard our screams. then after that miss clarissa went home. haha. and please don't fall ill you two. if not i'll feel so guilty. i know claaar is weak. haha.
okay. so that's about it. i'm still so happy. but the surprise thing seemed so long ago. haha. and there's mep tomorrow! yay. i like mep. oh yes. claaar wanted to give my the surprise party tomorrow. but too bad i got mep. if not more people could have came! haha.
alright.
au revoir!
tuesday the 18th.the best day i've ever had.wednesday the 19th.the bestest birthday i will have.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:26 AM
Monday, April 17, 2006
i think being an anorexic is fun. gosh. don't you think i'm out of my mind? haha. but seriously i think it is fun. after watching the video during biology about anorexics. haha. and kelly got so freaked out by me. okay. i think i should stop.
and i've got this freaking ca tomorrow for physics. and as you see, i'm apparently not studying even though i'm not prepared. i've slept through nearly the whole afternoon after my piano. apparently i collapsed on my bed. and i think i'm going to have nightmares tonight. nightmares of physics textbooks eating me up. haha. physics is such a horror. anyway i should stop. i'm getting lame and crappy.
alright. back to my vicki-eating physics textbook.
au revoir!
wednesday the 19th.hopefully it will turn out right.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
8:56 AM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
i still feel bloated right now. haha. but i'm happy. (:
dinner at morton's of chicago just now. i like that restaurant. so nice. and the portion there is like huge. haha. reminds me of canada huh. and the desert was nice. but right now, i'm sick of chocolate. haha. ahh. i want to go back to that restuarant. sigh. oh well. i guess this year's birthday isn't so bad after all. in fact this restaurant has been the best of all i've gone to over the years to celebrate my birthday. oh no. i'm having hiccups now. and know what! i want to be 18! haha. i was practically staring at my dad's martini for the whole night. grrr. not fair. he gets a martini and i get a fruit punch. ahh. not fair. haha.
oh know what. the toilet at the oriental is nice. okay. that was random. but somehow i like visiting nice toilets. hahaha. i think i'm really high. but all i took was a sip of my mom's red wine. and not the martini! oh. and the red wine wasn't nice. hahaha. oh gosh. my hiccups won't go away. maybe i should get some vodka. (: nah. i'm joking. i still need to get my homework done.
oh right. back to my graphs. i better finish it quick, cause my bed is really tempting. haha.
alright.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
11:13 AM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
i'm too lazy to delete my previous post. so just ignore it. hah.
i shall not think about anything at all. everything will turn out fine, just as claaar said. SIGH.
i think i'm insane. i'm blogging in the late morning. i shall go and finish up my homework and start mugging. since i'm going out tomorrow to celebrate my birthday in advance. i wonder how tomorrow will turn out. but who cares. i like the restaurant that i'm going tomorrow night. heh.
alright.
au revoir.
THANKS CLAAAR DARLING. hahaha.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
11:45 PM
isn't it how funny how things suddenly changes. when you've always thought things are perfect. everything seems to be changing now. i feel that even myself is changing. i like the old me. and what things seem to appear is deceiving. i guess i'll never find out what's going to happen.
what a way to start my post. and i was supposed to be tired in school today. but somehow i turned out to be depressed. and i hate night time. it makes me depressed. and tell me why i'm always feeling not at ease. bet there are lots of things happening and i just don't know what they all. so that's why i'm feeling uneasy.
sigh. i'm practically typing rubbish. i don't have to mood to blog actually. AHHH. what is freaking wrong with me. oh yes. can my birthday not come this year? won't time just stop now? and let everything be solved first. so that i'll have a happy birthday? pretty please?
alright.
au revoir!
to claaar darling. whose phone is apparently spoilt and i'm not sure if she received my message today. anyway i feel stupid sending that message, which is super long, and bothering you. if you didn't read it, then good for you. i wasn't even thinking properly when i sent that message. i was simply too depressed. or maybe tired. sigh. i bet you are sick of my complains and stuff.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:00 AM
Monday, April 10, 2006
AHHHHHH. okay. i'm not pissed this time. im just too happy! haha. oh i was high yesterday. and no. i wasn't drunk. just don't get the impression that i'm drunk everytime i say i'm high. although i admit i've gotten high twice cause i was nearly drunk. (:
anyway i got my IPOD NANO yesterday! oh yay. like finally. (: and it was a birthday present from my parents. the first present that i've gotten this year. and it's like super early. but who cares. so happy. heh. it's like so nice you know. (this is for claaar to read. points left) i'm going make claaar jealous. hahaha. oh yeah. i got the white one. the black one isn't nice you know, claaar dear. haha. and i'm serious claaar. if you can get 40 plus people to share it with me, i'll get it for you. haha.
okay. enough of rambling about my ipod nano. haha. ahhhhh. i'm so happy.
alright. GEOGRAPHY textbook here i come.
au revoir!
dreams come true.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
8:57 AM
Saturday, April 01, 2006
ms CLARISSA KOH darling asked me to blog. so here i am. cause apparently she talked to me just because she wanted me to blog. HAHA. okay. not funny.
yesterday was sports day! haha. fun fun. although sports day itself wasn't that fun. apart from screaming my lungs out and i nearly got suffocated cause i was stupid enough not to breathe. okay. i didn't mean that that was fun. haha. and our banner lost to 3/5. so sad. oh yes. and syazzy's father sent me to bedok stadium in the morning. and that was hilarious okay. cause her father kept talking to me in cantonese and syaz got so left out. haha.
hmm. after sports day. went to plaza sing with elizabeth and lynnette. OPPS. i'm so sorry, li qin and kelly dear. next time kay! then went to watch ice age 2! it was super funny. i wanna watch it again! anyone? HAHA. oh. and the funny thing was that we kept bumping into jana they all. we only thought we'll see them at the theatre. but no. we bumped into them while buying tickets and during lunch. HAHA. so you can imagine how i was laughing my head off.
and nothing much happened today. except that i was trying to study chem while sitting in front of the tv. huge distraction. oh yes. i haven't started on chem project. and i haven't finished my bio project. oh great.
and claaar just finished rambling about adriano.
okay! there my dear claaar! your name appeared on this post twice. and now adriano's name is up here too. HAHA.
alright.
au revoir!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:08 AM